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5/3/08 10:44 am - From Craigslist

who put the dead bird in my mailbox? - w4m
Date: 2008-04-20, 12:56PM EDT

a) how did you get into my mailbox in the first place, it is locked
b) did you kill the bird
c) it died horribly, that much was clear
d) you're psycho
e) do I know you
f) if I do know you I don't want to know you
g) if I don't know you, what did I do to inspire you to put a dead bird in my mailbox
h) I don't know how to disinfect a mailbox from a dead bird, I'm worried about diseases and have used five different kinds of cleaner but still feel like the bird's still in there still and like my bills and my catalogues and my coupons have dead bird on them
i) it was a hummingbird, I looked it up - they don't even live in New York - this is so f*ing psycho, I can't believe this
j) are you the mailman?
k) I'm always nice to the mailman
l) the super didn't care when I told him what happened
m) the neighbors didn't care either
n) do you have some kind of problem with birds
o) don't put anything else in my mailbox
p) unless it's an apology
q) no, I take that back, I don't even want an apology
r) what am I supposed to do with this bird - it's in bubblewrap in a bag in a shoebox in the freezer right now - am I supposed to bury it - where? how? in a construction site where they've jackhammered through the concrete - where is a person supposed to bury things in this city?
s) I could drop it in the Gowanus canal, but that seems undignified
t) I could drop it in the ocean, but the ocean is so big and it is such a small bird
u) I could drop it in the toilet but it would probably get stuck
v) I hear this whirring around my ears every time I go to the mailbox and I'm pretty sure it's ghost bird, and I'm all "it wasn't me that killed you, bird!" but still the whirring doesn't go away until I get to the stairwell
w) am I supposed to eat it - maybe you were trying to feed me - don't you know I'm a vegetarian
x) if this was Ricky, I'm gonna beat your ass, mama told you stop bothering the zoo
y) if this was Gina, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, how many times I gotta say I'm sorry
z) I could drop it off the roof, maybe it will reincarnate while falling and I can start reading my mail again

4/18/08 02:41 pm - Emails

From: Ruby Red
To: David Walls
Sent: Monday, April 14, 2008 6:04 PM
I just had a long shitty day and then called to check on grandpa. He thought I was coming with you and Meghan to Texas. I told him I wanted to but just couldn't. then there was a long awkward silence. I didn't know if he was upset or didn't hear me so when I talked to Cathy next I had to ask her to make sure he knew I couldn't come and I was sorry. so that was fun.

David Walls to me:
show details 9:23 PM (13 hours ago)

I wish you could make it but maybe later on this year you would have the time and I would fly you there. My talk at the Five and Dime went real well last week. I felt comfortable and I think I did a good job. We have a guy on vacation so I am working his hours and my hours. Tonight is day 10 of 16 in a row, 12 hour days! I am very tired of working but it will be worth it when I get my next check!

I love you

Ruby Red to David:
show details 10:26 AM (0 minutes ago)

Jesus. You'd have to really like your job for that. I like my projection job so I might be able to do that but it would be seriously hard.
I'm going back to school. I've been busting my ass and I was accepted into an excellent photography program. It's renowned. Really amazing. I rocked that interview so hard and they let me in. Now I'm trying to get my paperwork rushed in to prove I'm a resident of Florida so it wont cost as much to enroll and I'm not sure Fafsa will come through in time... I have to the end of this month.
I'm stressing. But if I come up with the money I need I'll start my first two classes in May. And I really want to start because this fall is the real work and I'm so behind in math there's already no way I'll be able to graduate with the rest of my class. But the good news is that Four years in this program and I have a degree. I'm a transfer student to Central Florida University. I'm getting my masters, Dad. Eventually.
I'm not going one more birthday wondering how I'm going to survive in my field. I know you said I need a back up plan and another career to fall back on but this is better. I have a lot of talent and with degrees behind me I wont ever be out of work. It's a really competitive field but so is medical and you aren't worried about Meghan not having work when she graduates, right?
I wasn't going to say anything until I was on my way but I am. I interviewed with the chairmen of the program and he gave me a tour of the campus, introduced me to everyone, and gave me a couple names to see about scholarships. Right now my only worry is getting into classes this term. I'm sick of waiting for this. I'm taking English comp (boring but a must. luckily I scored very very high in my placement test in everything but math) and an intro to the darkroom.
Luckily I already have much of the equipment I'll need for the entire four years and I can rent others. So the money isn't that big of an issue. It's just paying for classes right now.
The text books I'm not worried about because I still have my other ones. I told you I'd need them again. I always knew I would go back to school. I took out a loan for this spring but it was too late to get one now. The photo class is two days a week and my other class I'm doing online so I can do that while I'm working since I have internet access up in thew projection room. I thought that was smart of me.

Well- there's a lot going on in my life right now and school is the biggest one. I am worried. Not just about the money but it seems overwhelming this fall when I start the program. I know I can do it though! My job is a great one to have while doing school cause I have a lot of time to study. I'll get a second job when I'm not going to school. That should help. Classes just cost so much.
I have a good councler though.

4/7/08 07:17 pm

4/4/08 09:56 pm - In My Language

This is what YouTube sometimes is. Beyond the pointless pic spams of Orlando Bloom to the music of Death Cab for Cutie or blonde drunk girls putting on a play in the dorm. Instead of snippets from tv (I'm not knocking that, watching Wife Swap is what I go to YouTube for).
It can be something bigger. And sometimes it is. It's our voice it's us. Without anyone changing it. Without editing. Without a writer changing your story to fit the masses or to put their personal touch on it. Without anyone changing the content to fit a certain graphic.
You Tube is sometimes amazing film that never would have been seen otherwise.

EDIT: Some of you may not get through this and turn it off before you understand what's going on. This woman is autistic. Just listen to what she has to say. Not because she's 'special' but because she has a story.

4/1/08 11:35 am - No NATO

Anti-NATO membership protest in Ukrainian capital
13:04 | 25/ 01/ 2008

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KIEV, January 25 (RIA Novosti) - An estimated 1,000 people took to the streets of the Ukrainian capital on Friday to protest against moves by the country's leadership to join NATO.

Some 30 MPs from opposition parties also disrupted parliamentary work in a further show of opposition to President Viktor Yushchenko's intention to seek membership in the Western military alliance for Ukraine, a one-time Soviet republic and the largest country completely in Europe.

The protesters in Kiev chanted slogans such as "NATO is slavery for Slavs" and "No to NATO!"

Last week, Ukrainian Foreign Minister Volodymyr Ohryzko handed a request for Ukraine to join NATO's Membership Action Plan to the alliance's secretary general, Jaap de Hoop Scheffer. The Action Plan is a necessary step on the path to eventual full membership of the organization.

Earlier on Friday, members of the Party of Regions and the Communist Party of Ukraine called on the country's leadership to recall the request for NATO membership, claiming that such a step was only possible after a referendum.

Prime Minister Yulia Tymoshenko previously stated that a decision on whether Ukraine should take up any future NATO offer to join the alliance would only be taken after a national referendum.

Ukraine's leadership hopes that a decision on its membership application will be taken in early April in Bucharest during a NATO summit meeting.

A recent poll carried out by Ukraine's Democratic Initiatives foundation reported that over 50% of Ukrainians would vote against joining NATO. In the survey, 51.9% of respondents said they viewed NATO as an "aggressive imperialist bloc that would draw Ukraine into military conflicts."
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